25 Things I Love

Febuary is coming way to fast and I'm not sure how I feel about it. I am a huge fan of Valentines Day when I am in a relationship but being single on Valentines Day sucks. Instead of getting all depressed and sad I am going to focus on all the things I love. I'm going to tell you 25 things that I absolutly love.
1. I absolutly love my boys. They are the most important thing in life to me right now. In some way they bring a smile to my face everyday. I dont know what I would do without them.
2. I Love taking Baths. I usually take at least two baths a day if not more. Everytime I am cold I have to jump in the bath to warm me up. I love turning on the jets and making extra bubbles. I love turning the water up as hot as I can stand. Ooohhh, I love it.
3. I Love going out to eat, usually without my kids so I can actually enjoy eating it and not rushing to get out of the resturant. My favorite place is probably Olive Garden. We used to go there all the time, but now I'm lucky if I get there once a month.
4. I Love at night when my kids are asleep and I get my bed to myself and I can catch up on all my TV shows I watch. I love Greys Anatomy, Private Practice. The Bachelor, American Idol, One Tree Hill, and many more...
5. I Love to cuddle when its raining outside. I think it is so romatic. I love the rain.
6. I Love the thunder and lightning, only when theres somebody by my side to protect me, other wise I think its kind of scary. One night a couple years ago the thunder would just shake our house, it was so scary but I loved it.
7. My new love is running. I love how I feel when I am done. It totally takes so much stress out of my day.
8. I love Blogging. I love to come on the computer in the morning and see if any one wrote something new. I love to share all my thoughts, pictures and anger with you. I love to read everybodies comments they have left. I just love It.
9. I love my Job. I have the most amazing job in the world. I work with the funnest people. I get to know the most wonderful families and be there to support them as they are going through one of the most difficult times of there lifes. and most of all I get to take care of these precious babies who are struggling to survive.
10. I love when my house is clean. I particularly dont like cleaning it, but when it is done it is so nice to just sit and relax in a nice clean smelling place.
11. I love when I have just finished painting and decorating a room. I have new ideas for my basement and living room that I just cant wait to get started on. Its a little hard to paint now with my 3 little helpers.
12. I love getting into bed at night, especially when I have clean 600 thread count sheets. They are so soft.
13. I love getting away and staying at hotel rooms. I really like the suites.
14. I love going to a good movie and eating popcorn and drinking a big coke. My favorite movie is Pretty Woman. I loved Titanic the first time, now I cant watch it. I really love any good chick flick.
15. I love when you get butterflies when you are excited about something.
16. I love that Braxton tells me he loves me ten times a day, and always wants to snuggle with me and complains that his brothers get to be by me more then he does.
17. I love when Logan runs to me and says "Ma" when I come home from work. He gets the biggest grin.
18. I love cute Cooper when he smiles and laughs. I cant help it but to smile back at him. He is so cute.
19. I love the spring. I love when it starts to get warm and all the flowers start to bloom.
20. I love mowing the lawn. I love the exercise I get and the way it looks when it is all done.
21. I love looking through my scrapbooks and see all the cute pictures I've took. Even though I am two years behind.
22. I love going to relief society when there is a lesson I really needed to hear. I love coming home and trying to become a better person.
23. I love taking my kids to things that I know they'll enjoy. Like, disney on ice, Lagoon, Movies, and chuck e cheese.
24 I love that I have so many wonderful friends and family members that would do anything for me.
25. and most important. I love myself. I love the person I have become. I love that I am so optimistic. I love that I am a hard worker and I can support myself and my boys.

I tag everyone thats reading this to do the same.

Cute Cooper

Cooper is growing up so fast. He's crawling and standing up with things. He mumbles all day long. He is such a happy baby, most of the time. He's got the cutest smile ever. I just love playing with him.

Here I go again

So its been a couple monthes since I have gone off and I'm struggeling, so here it goes. And yes, I have forgotten to take my antidepressent this week. It's sad that my life has come to this, remembering to take a small pill so I can make it through the day without crying. I am realizing very quickly that I hate being single (again). Maybe thats why I kept getting married so quick and making the wrong choices. Trust me I will not make this mistake again. I will not rush into getting married but oh how I would love to have somebody in my life. Some people say you just need to figure out how to be on your own for 5 years and then date, I think thats a bunch of bull @#$%. I've been on my own for the last 10 years and I hate it. I think I need to stop watching the Bachelor and watching all these girls fall in love or reading these love story's like the "Lucky One". By the way thank you who ever gave that to me for christmas, he is my favorite author and the book is amazing. Ok so you get the point, I am lonely but not only that I am stressed out to the max. This single mom thing is awful. I am trying to be a great mom but man am I tired. I feel like I have to go overboard and be there mom, dad, friend, finacial supporter, teacher and counceler. I cant keep up with all of it. I am totally overwhelmed. Sometimes I think about just dropping the kids off at grandmas and hoping on the first plane I see. I am so ready for a vacation. Ok I'm done ranting. I know I am not the only one going through difficult times and you are all in my prayers. One day I will be thankful for this time but right now its really hard.

Divorce Party

I know this is a family blog and all but I wanted to share some pictures of my Divorce party. My friends from work went out of there way to through me a great party. We had so much fun. It started out at Daisys house where ate and laughed and they drank. We had a cake cutting moment and we also tied hot dogs around our waist and saw who could get the most cut off by a mouse trap. We laughed so hard. They made me a sash that said Divorcee and everyone signed it. Later we went back to Club Habits and danced are little hearts away. Everyone had so much fun. I love hanging out with my crazy friends from work.
Me and Ashley on the way to the club.

I drove the crazy drunks to the club

The hot dog game.

Cutting the cake


I'll leave it up to your imagination what the cake is.

Start of a good year

Tonight we had a good night. It started off with Braxton making dinner, meatloaf. As he was mixing it all together he said "this feels awesome". Gross, I hate touching hamburger. He actually ate all his dinner though because he made it. We also had corn and everyone ate it. (if you didn't know we never eat vegetables, part of my new years resolution). After dinner we had a nice family home evening. Our lesson was on being good and helping mom out. Braxton is really struggling lately. Wonder why? We then played hide and go seek, one of Braxtons favorite. Logan can never stop laughing so I always know where to find them. Then we had desert. Yum. The boys decided to get in the bath. They all had a good time. I took some pictures because they were so cute.

This picture is after I came back from getting Cooper dressed. They are two little mischievious boys.

For once the boys sat in there room and watched a movie why I watched The Bachelor and The Secret Life of an American Teenager. They did fall asleep in their beds but by morning they were in mine.

New Years Resolutions

My new years resolutions for this year are:

1. Get my kids out of my bed. Make them go to sleep at 8:30 in there own rooms. Get them more on a routine.

2. Of course, get in shape. Exercise 3x a week.

3. Start eating better. Cut down on fast food. Only eat out 2 meals a week

4. Stay on a budget. Put money in savings. STOP spending money on stupid things.

5. Be happy and take time out for myself.

6. Start having family night. Spend good quality time with my kids doing something fun.