Floating

Last night I got the dreaded call from work that told me I was going to float to another floor. In the past 9 years I have only floated twice and honestly it wasn't that bad, its just the anticipation of going somewhere else and not knowing what your doing. I have lost most of my skills unless they have to do with babies so I was terrrified. The scariest thing for me was that I was going to the Cancer floor. You would think working in the NICU I would be used to all the sad stuff but I knew this was going to be very hard for me. I do ok with babies but when I see older kids that are hurting it just breaks my heart.
I didn't have to go in until 1, which was great. When I got there my 2 patients were sleeping so I didn't need to wake them up until 4. I did all my cares and labs and was doing pretty good but then about six o'clock one of my cute little bald boys started to cry and wanted his mom. I completely lost it. The tears started flowing. I sat with him in his room for a little bit and tried to pull it together. His dad finally woke up and comforted him.
After my shift I walked over to my floor and saw Kerry and lost it again. Everyone just looked at me and knew I had floated over to ICS. It is not good to send the most emotional person over to a floor like that. I finally made it to my car and cried for the next two hours. I think that was the hardest thing emotionally I have ever experienced at work. I have taken a lot of babies of life support before and I do fine. I think it is a very spiritual thing and I can handle it. But I could not handle seeing a 4 year old boy who will probably not survive crying for his mom. I think this image is going to haunt me for the rest of my life.
I am so thankful that I have 3 healthy boys and I have not had to go through that trial. I look up to all the parents who hold it together as there watching their children suffer through life. I hope one day you are truly blessed. I also am so greatful there are wonderful nurses out there that can bring a smile to those cute little kids, because I definetly could not do it.

California

Last week me and a few friends from work went on a wonderful relaxing vacation to Newport Beach, California. For an entire week we got to lay out at the beach and play in the ocean. Every morning at 7:30 started out with a great run along the boardwalk or the sand. One day while running on the beach I was checking out the hot surfer dudes when I saw four dolphins swimming around one of the paddle surfers. It was so neat to see. We went to some great restuarants and shops. We had some hilarious girl talks and not to mention all the time in the ocean getting beat up by the waves. We all came home rested and some pretty good tans.

Me and Bonnie making funny faces.

Bonnie and Mike

Me, Kerry and Lorie at a restuarant that had the best cheese fries, Yum...

We rented bikes and rode them all over. This picture was taken one night on our way to Huntington Beach to go enjoy the Farmers Market. It was a really long ride but the sunset was beautiful.

One night we had a bonfire on the beach and made smores. It was so much fun.

We even found a little friend that lived under our house.

Braxton turns 7

Dear Braxton,
Happy Birthday Brax. I cant believe you are seven. You are growing up way to fast. I remember the day I had you. You were the cutest baby I had ever seen, and I've seen a lot of babies. I remember I just looked at you and cried because you were so perfect. That was one of the best days of my life.
You have brought so many smiles to my face. When you were little I could just sit and watch you all day and laugh at the things you were doing. We've had a lot of fun times together bud. I think we have gone to the zoo at least 20 times and Lagoon and swimming. I loved that you were such a snuggle bug and loved to sleep in my bed. Sorry your brothers have kind of stole your spot but remember you had 4 years without them.
You are such a good brother and they both love you so much and look up to you. I hope as you grow older you will be able to play and teach them. I hope that you will make good choices and that they will be able to look up at you.
I know these last years haven't been the greatest but you are what has gotten me through all the hards times. I hope that you will only remember all the wonderful things we have done together. I know its hard now but I hope one day you will know that I tried my best and all the times I got mad at you I was only trying to help you become a better person and do the right things. I love you so much, and I hope we will have many more fun years.
Love, mom.

The kids had so much fun on this slide. I think at one time I counted 30 kids. They were just coming from all over the neighborhood.

Logan and Cooper loved the splash pool I had got them.
Look at the worry on my face..... It was so much fun.

We are the coolest moms ever. We did another joint birthday party with one of Braxton's best friends, Eathen. I think it was a party that will go down in history.

Bear Lake

I am so lucky to have such wonderful friends. This has to be one of my favorite pictures. All of us sitting on the beach with our babies. I cant believe he are old enough to have kids and not just one everyone of us has three kids. I remember the times back in high school when we would go hang out at the dam and reinact funny moments. We always had the best time and im so glad that we have been able to hang on to those friendships.
These pictures are from last weekend when we went up to Jamie's cabin in Bear Lake. Manny and Nick where doing the triathalon so we decided it would be a great friend trip. We had such a good time. He had 14 kids and 5 of them were 1 and under. I dont think there was even one fight between the kids. My boys had such a great time. Thanks Manny and Jamie for inviting us.

Poor Ty had to pull all the kids around the lake in the tube.

Logan and Haily just chillin!!!

Cooper loved the sand and ate a whole lot of it too.

Heres all the older kids doing some crafts as the little ones slept.

This was us at Bear Lake Pizza laughing because we were overtaken with kids.

First Grade

Braxton headed back to school a few weeks ago. So far he is enjoying it but the homework starts this week so we will see. His teacher is Mrs. Gardener and he is in the 1st grade. Logan really wanted to go the first day and was sad to see his brother go but we are now adjusting just fine.